
San Antonio Envy
Heather (now an Associate VSer) was on vacation this week with her family in San Antonio. She had, of course, a great time basking in the Texas warmth while Amanda and Tiffany battled a weekend snowstorm here in St. Louis. And while our jealousy was loudly voiced, we were happy to live vicariously as she related her vacation adventures.
Sometimes It's Not Easy...
This week was a rough one for Amanda and Tiffany. Tiffany found out on Wednesday that her family (back in Minnesota) are struggling through a very difficult situation. Right on cue, she woke up Thursday morning with a sore throat and coughing until she was pretty sure small pieces of lung would soon be appearing. She took Thursday and Friday off of work and Nurse Amanda stepped in to provide the necessary medication and direction ("Tiffany, go to bed!" Tiffany, take more vitamin C!" Tiffany, why aren't you sleeping yet?!"). On Saturday, Amanda had her own unhappy news from home. Her great Aunt had passed away on Friday night. Needless to say, VS really isn't all flowers and candy.
But It's Possible
Fortunately, there were spots of brightness that reminded us why we chose to do this year of service. We enjoyed housesitting for a couple from the church who, coincidently have one of the coolest video games you'll ever play. Tiffany had two friends from Goshen come through St. Louis. They stayed Saturday and Sunday and provided a needed boost for the still slightly ill Tiffany. And on Sunday, Amanda enjoyed her 15 minutes of fame (give or take 10 minutes) when La Clinica was featured on the evening news. The three of us also attended young adult Bible Study Sunday night and have spent a considerable amount of time lately watching "Anne of Green Gables," a movie that slices cleanly through any dark mood.
When Being Where You're Supposed To Be, Isn't
Amanda and Tiffany have both struggled this week with being so far from home and family. It's difficult to motivate oneself to keep going to work every day, holding back tears because you know they're meant to be shared with loved ones, ones who know. It's difficult to resist taking the next flight out when you are forced to express in phone conversation those things that can only be truly understood when they are read in the face of someone you love. It's difficult to work for change in a world that suddenly doesn't feel so full of potential. Who's hand do you hold when the only people you want to touch are hundreds of miles away? What do you tell yourself when the job that once felt powerful now keeps you from being there for the most important people in your life? These are the unanswerable questions that rush through the mind of a service worker as they bump into the first wall erected by this thing called personal sacrifice. But still, you keep going. Because even if it doesn't always feel to you that you are where you should be, the child at HeadStart would disagree, as would the uninsured mother desperately seeking medical help. So we have found, when you can't touch the ones you love, you hold the hand of a stranger who needs you. When you can't hug a family member, you wrap your arms around a scared child. And you might find these strangers feeling familiar, like the people you wish could be as close, suddenly are.